another month hath passed us by! swoosh! ~

This dragon of despair burns down all that I hold dear. I begin to sink deeper and deeper into depression and apathy. Why bother? It's a serious question. Why get up? Why make the bed? Why fight for anything at all? Because there is still hope yet! Because the dragon just might have a weakness. Because your heroes are uninformed enough to think they might have a chance. The fat lady hasn't sung. The concrete has not set yet. There is still time. Yes, this planet is wrought with horrors and pain and heartache, but there is beauty still. The dark horses are still running.

[jf]

• 31 may :: sis, for being so accommodating whenever i visit :D>
• 30 may :: librabry after church. meeting up w my sibs in Spore. >
• 29 may :: excitement and addiction to mario brothers. japanese dinner (thanks jane! =) cheap CDs!
• 28 may :: outlet stores! :) public transport convenience.
• 27 may :: the excitement from a pre-trip.. the solitude of a bus ride.. sis waiting for me at the terminal at midnite
• 26 may :: sis bought and paid for my bus tix home fr Spore
• 25 may :: healthy bread.. and butter :P
• 24-may :: getting myself to do something (i'm such a procrastinator so yeah every task done is worthy of a celeb *winces*)
• 23 may :: new lunch spot for post-svc lunch! :)
• 22 may :: my team :)
• 21 may :: MC!
• 20 may :: raw fish! cheese!
• 19 may :: dictionaries. online and printed.
• 18 may :: air asia! :D
• 17 may :: electricity. and running water. i am forever indebted.
• 16 may :: that malay dude who was my math teacher in standard 2. "matematik senang aje" you have no idea what that meant to me.
• 15 may :: have i listed "air cond" before? yeah? what abt Google? :)
• 14 may :: re-runs that doesn't get old (the nanny, friends :)
• 13 may :: a bed to crawl into.
• 12 may :: eye opener documentary on dolphin slaughter (the cove, @palatepalette). can't suppress skepticism at activist overtones though.
• 11 may :: bonding over a korean dinner ;)
• 10 may :: patience and prayers of others over us
• 9 may :: opp to eat a very exp fish, to see what the fuss was about :D
• 8 may :: friendship sealed by shared torment, celebrated with a nasi lemak breakfast :D
• 7 may :: twitter, for the momentary carthartic release
• 6 may :: chocolate.. and coffee ;)
• 5 may :: argh i'm so behind on this! :P mm, for today, it'll be to watch 'let the right one in' w chongy :)
• 4 may :: mom! (minus the nags.. hehe)
• 3 may :: humour. life would be such a dread without it.
• 2 may :: rare activity - house viewing
• 1 may :: arts! books! food! concert! all in a day! :)

"No Winter lasts forever, no Spring skips its turn.
April is a promise that May is bound to keep, and we know it."
- Hal Borland

don't really know what that means hahhaha! but april's over. 0_o

# 30 apr :: a "friday off" from church
# 29 apr :: warm meal on a cold day (hot pot dinner)
# 28 apr :: meat (i know i've said this before, but it's especially meaningful on vege-ful days :D)
# 27 apr :: wearing new clothes :P
# 26 apr :: buying new clothes ^^
# 25 apr :: an unexpected reprieve :P
# 24 apr :: pulling off practice with last min notice
# 23 apr :: people who love what they do and do it well
# 22 apr :: alternative media
# 21 apr :: free passes to watch tokio hotel! :D
# 20 apr :: sis' comments on my blogs ;)
# 19 apr :: experiences, good or bad.. useful in extending counsel.
# 18 apr :: mobile phones :)
# 17 apr :: my siblings <3<3 that we stand by each other
# 16 apr :: weekends. sabbath. rest.
# 15 apr :: education. teachers. patience.
# 14 apr :: a comfort zone.
# 13 apr :: books <3
# 12 apr :: olfactory memories
# 11 apr :: that the world exist in colours
# 10 apr :: street food
# 9 apr :: aerodynamics
# 8 apr :: greens! lurve my salad lunch ;D
# 7 apr :: fellowship of the saints. knowing that i'm not alone in my walk with God. :)
# 6 apr :: music and books to make my daily commute so much more bearable. hehe. sometimes i wish the ride was longer :P
# 5 apr :: frankness in a relationship
# 4 apr :: 12 hour sleep. <3<3 hehe..
# 3 apr :: side income. haha.. better a little than none at all. ;)
# 2 apr :: EPF! got a cheque today to reduce my hsing loan.
# 1 apr :: instant noodle. hehe..

1 quarter down. and three to go. whoa, nellie!

31 mar :: starbucks. lol!

30 mar :: that i'm relatively allergy free. that i don't attract mosquitoes :)

29 mar :: air cond. air cond. air cond.

28 mar :: meeeeat.. *rawrrr*

27 mar :: tarred roads

26 mar :: the colours of sunset

25 mar :: social networking tools, without which i'm a total s.inept. kan. hehe..

24 mar :: mille crepe cake! <3

23 mar :: fried chicken from that chapfun shop in kuchai. tastes better than KFC. cheaper too. <3 where have u been my whole life!

22 mar :: vegetable soup. whenever i make stg that i actually like, i'd think "i'm awesome!" sometimes i say it out loud. hahaha.. tak tahu malu.

21 mar :: chatting w mom while dad & hubby watched the MU(2)-Liverpool(1) game on TV.. hearing her said that my sis was a naughty kid (haha!) and i was the good one *halo glows*..plus some stories way back when..

20 mar :: an absolutely lazy Sat || changed maybank treatpoints for a new cabin luggage bag :)

19 mar :: dun particularly feel thankful today.. but yeah.. let me choose stg.. mm, im thankful for Internet. like, really really.

18 mar :: chat with J figuring some parts in the bk of Romans.. love this kinda conversation!

17 mar :: grapes! i love them.. cold storage was selling the green ones for like, rm8.99/kg.. happiness.

16 mar :: dinner with a family from church. havent been to their home in a while dy.

15 mar :: 2nd mtg went well

14 mar :: cooling coconut juice <3

13 mar :: IKEA trip! ^^

12 mar :: being appointed treasurer for church camp > finally, a new portfolio! :)

11 mar :: nite class. i still hate asgmts but i know they are good for me. >_< necessary evil.

10 mar :: choices. even if i don't exercise them, i have them. | new pair of shoes @70% off ^^ | lunch w kang ^^

9 mar :: dinner w the goat & ann @indulge. haven't seen him in ages. 'tis his bday tmr but i got him to buy me dinner instead. lol! got my SF CDs! ^^

8 mar :: evening w sherylee!! <3<3 welcome bak to the real world! ^^ time to revive foodblog ^^

7 mar :: nice l-o-n-g nap aft church ^^

6 mar :: "1st meeting"

5 mar :: encouraging testimonies abt prayer for workplc from SS & VA, a welcome relief aft a whole day of b*****ing abt mine

4 mar :: lunch with kang ^^

3 mar :: vege juice from SP LRT station.. makes me feel healthy..

2 mar :: bernarda alba @klpac. oh wow.

1 mar :: meeting up, eating & praying together with PS & SP

another 28 things that i was thankful for..

* 28 feb :: found another place with mille crepe @cafe indulge, kuchai. free coffee (cashier forgot to incl, boss waived =)
* 27 feb :: outing w sis, cs & sheryl (i've missed u!! =) @ikea. awesome dinner & post-dinner chat w the family. mom said my siew yoke is better than those sold. <3
* 26 feb :: sibs are back! <3 spending time w them..
* 25 feb :: hubby going all the way to PJ to send me to class
* 24 feb :: movie w hubby
* 23 feb :: angpow from bosses
* 22 feb :: buffet lunch @MO
* 21 feb :: quiet day
* 20 feb :: open houses
* 19 feb :: short work week! :)
* 18-feb :: helpful & efficient staff @EPF counter; lunch with J :)
* 17 feb :: hubby picked me up fr work. new skirt & shoes (angpow $$ ^^)
* 16 feb :: finished Glee! :)
* 15 feb :: slept during car ride to/from segamat :)
* 14 feb :: angpow, angpow, angpow! :)
* 13 feb :: clear traffic back to Sban (on LEKAS highway)
* 12 feb :: porky dinner w hubby @eurodeli ^^ "walking exercise" aft dinner.
* 11 feb :: nite class (life of Christ). i might not rber ething, but i hope i got stg.
* 10 feb :: got hold of Glee eps 7-13 (thanks lil!) our isetan escapade is a story worth 2 laughs :)
* 09 feb :: evening at kopitiam w hubby
* 08 feb :: mom's discharged!
* 07 feb :: peter pork noodle, brickfields ;)
* 06 feb :: watched 2 of my fav movies ^^ - coraline &esotsm
* 05 feb :: mom is okay (it wasn't dengue)
* 04 feb :: i think i have a very good boss :) i ought to work harder.
* 03 feb :: meeting up T & S after forever. PORKY dinner. 'nuff said.
* 02 feb :: meeting up w S after 1 month^^ lip smacking beef rib soup @daorae ^^
* 01 feb :: sleeping in

mommy
my mom was admitted to the hosp on Thu on suspicion of dengue, as she's had fever for more than a week running now. thank God the blood test came back negative, but she's still being warded for observation. her temp's been oscillating between 38 & 39 degree celcius the past few days. doc said there will be another round of blood test tmr. :|

i pray that she wld be all right soon. it's her birthday on Sunday. she's turning 55. like, wow.


coffee, tea and me
i became a "tea person" sometime last year. i don't quite rber exact details surrounding the epiphany, but i was aware of the events leading up to it.. helping myself to a bunch of free tea bags from hilton when we had an event there, buying green tea teabags from the hypermarket, occasionally choosing tea over coffee to go with the cake at dessert.. it just happened.

one reason i like tea is that i could drink it without sugar. milk with tea is a definite No-no. my body plain rejects it. but coffee's all right. one of my fav tea place is societea, a fortuitous find for both chongy and i [can't wait til we get to hang out again, when her theatrical endeavor ends (expect another promo on this soon :)]. love the ambience and the selection of tea. :)

depending on mood, i usu get either mocha or americano -- weirdly these are both extremes, one very sweet, the other rather bitter -- from the ubiquitous starbuck joints. it's in the 'indulge' category right now, it's just too pricey for a poor office worker like me. boo hoo. anyways, i don't take latte/cappucino after seeing how it's prepared -- the amount of milk put in just puts me off. blergh.

i like the kopitiam variety too. the proliferation of kopitiams around KL in the past few years made getting a cuppa local joe almost effortless. i usu go to oldtown or hailam (not pappa rich cos they are so expensive. the rich in their name must have referred what we would make them). i also like cafe chawan in bangsar, which has like 15 various types (maybe more) of coffee from all over msia.. ipoh, kluang, tenom, kemaman, cap kapal api, cap tupai, you name it. the only thing i don't like abt that plc is that it's open air = smokers. urgh.

nevertheless, a nicely chilled H2O is still my fav bev. ;) think i'll go get a glass before i con't writing. :)

i would so lurrve this tea sub. and while milk repulses me, this jug is so cute!!!!

focus
i read/edited 28 pages of text in under 2 hours on Wed. mm, so i *can* focus if i *need* to, but not if i *want* to.


test
i crammed one month's worth of notes in a 45min revision, in the train on the way to class. the test paper creamed me. it was awful. sigh.


project 365/2010
life sucks. right now it does. which is all the more why i make myself count my blessings. looking back at the 31 items that i had in January does remind me that yeah, it wasn't that bad. another part of me might argue otherwise.. perspective, girl, perspective.

mm, this kinda remind me.. where's yours? :P

a month's worth of thanksgiving

i managed to diligently keep the list for one month, it is a feat in itself. :)
archiving it here as a post, for posterity, and to keep my right column from stretching like my tight budget. :)

# 31 jan :: playing taboo with Z, F & J (incl a lovely lunch @decanter's)
# 30 jan :: 10hr sleep (still not enuf thou)! siew yoke turned out awesome!! *beams*
# 29 jan :: got a new lappie! ^___^ can finally toss the dinosaur out! :)
# 28 jan :: getting to know someone and the delight of finding out things we have in common
# 27 jan :: someone told me i could write. and i got punk'd (not grateful per se, but it made me laugh)
# 26 jan :: catching up w ex-colls, albeit at a funeral
# 25 jan :: crisis mgt seminar
# 24 jan :: being massaged while someone washes my hair (while getting a haircut) + roasted goose for lunch ^__^
# 23 jan :: 13 hours of sleep! i know. ;) meeting ex-colls at my fav teaplace..
# 22 jan :: mamak with new cell group members
# 21 jan :: i wanna say "free lunch" but it'll be food related again. hehe.. mm, wad abt "classmate saying Hi" :D
# 20 jan :: free wi-fi (technically not free-free, it comes at the cost of a drink. win-win! =)
# 19 Jan :: my siew yoke turning out well. yumss.. ^__^
# 18 Jan :: yuppie evening @starbucks -- buy1free1 voucher (thanks, ww! :)
# 17 Jan :: fellowship with friends aft sunday service
# 16 Jan :: beef noodle @sban market (food seems to be the top topic for thanksgiving >_<).
# 15 Jan :: parents
# 14-Jan :: cheap lunch.. chap fun@central. austerity drive - full speed ahead!
# 13-Jan :: theater! watching "Men in Tutus" @KLPAC tonite! :)
# 12-Jan :: encouraging life, testimony --> bro wong's mom
# 11-Jan :: cheap (relatively), yummy lunch --> panmee@aveK
# 10-Jan :: being able to sing! :)
# 09-Jan :: free meals in bangsar! :) brekkie (hse of tang - ps michael) & lunch (delicious-TLL)!
# 08-Jan :: a rainbow in the sky that reminded me that God is in control :)
# 07-Jan :: opportunity to attend night classes at BCM (Life of Christ class starts today)
# 06-Jan :: hubby sending me to work
# 05-Jan :: old friends who called to say Hi!
# 05-Jan :: Janitors at LRT on rainy day drying/mopping the dirty, wet floor
# 04-Jan :: Not having to brave the crowds/the comfort of a car on the way to work
# 03-Jan :: A long weekend before the year starts
# 02-Jan :: Toilets that flush/Sewage system
# 01-Jan :: Clean water from the pipes