向昨天说再见.. not so soon!

when my colleague cj out of the blue yesterday told me she downloaded a couple of jimmy lin's songs for me,  the first thing i did was to thank her, and then giggled, and then giggled some more. ah, the good old days of idol crushing. *giggles*

if you did not know already, i was a HUGE fan of 林志颖!  i think he was the only singer i've obsessed over. i had all his albums and newspaper cutouts and posters (not pasted on my walls thou') and all his songs painstakingly translated into pinyin word by word and memorised. i'd buy Chinese magazines just for an article with him - i've a ring file full of everything him. i was taken in hook, link and sinker by his boyish looks and cute pop songs (which incidentally, are a PAIN to watch now. i looked up some songs over youtube just now and seriously, they are cringe-worthy ahahahahhaah).. it was intense. and then he went for his national training, and just like that, the crush was over.

today, i asked cj to download several more songs. it has been a fun day listening to him.. and being 14 again!

我的知己是谁 我的心情谁体会

谁说少年的我 不懂愁滋味

也许这是成长的感觉

我也曾经流泪 我也曾经徘徊

其实我也需要 一点点安慰

带我走出封闭的空间

一起向昨天说再见

寻找属于我们的世界

年轻的梦都将实现

只要我们用心去追

一起向昨天说再见

写下属于自己的明天

所有界限都将穿越

等待我像展翅高飞

林志颖 - 向昨天说再见

20.11.2011

It's an auspicious day to be 33 [LOL!] so happy birthday to me.. ^_^

May I find what I I'm looking for, whatever it is.

Thank you God for your love and blessings and mercy and grace that overflows in my life.

I'm walking down a well-trodden path, yet feeling rather lost and somewhat lonely. It looks like I might be here for a while; peering suspiciously at what appears to be complacency or is it calibration. But for most part, I'm actively idle.

When I'm behind the wheel, I don't mind, and sometimes even welcome, getting lost (but I hate the snag that's the traffic jam when I'm looking for a way out).. I always learn a new route or bad one in getting back on track, and it's kinda exciting when the aha! moment strikes (again, just no traffic jam please).

That's when the previously greyed out area in the map that's in my head reveals itself when the dots and destinations connect.

It's 11.11.11 11:11AM right now.

Just thought I'd commemorate the moment (yeah I do this, but I still haven't posted anything about my anniversary two weeks back.. Tsk tsk! Hehe..)(Btw, we turned NINE on 26.10.11 -- Yay us! =)(and I'm happy to be happy)(and I miss the hubby now that he's away..comebacksoonhubby!!)..

Anyways, I love November - it's the most awesome of months, only because I was born this month. We Novemberians are a loving, cute bunch ahem.. really. I haven't met a Noverian I don't like, have you? ;)

Nov signifies the time to start winding down (I know, it's like we've just started and somehow the year went over us like, whoosh!) and reflecting on the year gone by.. and going for holidays with the AA flight tix you book last year.. and weddings to attend.. and scrambling to finish off off the to-do or to-achieve list. And erm.. shopping for Xmas (dread dread dread!).. It's nice, cos the year is not year over and at the same time, somewhat behind us.. Thanks Nov, for being gentle. 

Away.

I want to be somewhere somewhat (far) away. I want to feel at home in another place; to be a foreigner then maybe a friend. Just for a week, a month or a year.. not too long, I still belong here.

Her Majesty The Big Headed Prawn Highness

I should start a new label to tag all the posts chronicaling the many times I royally screw up. Sigh.

My mind must have left home for the day before my body did that evening. Maybe it was never really there in the first place. All the receipts from my recent work-related travelling and daily parking which I meant to submit to accounts had been neatly stuck on several sheets of paper and painstakingly labelled, all these.. I threw them away and I left for home. Yeah you read that right. Sigh.

I didn't realise they were missing til two days later in the middle of the night when I thought I would just go thru them again before sending them in. They weren't home and after a sleepless night I found they were not in the office either.

The thing is everyone in the office has been uprooted from our place due to
a renovation which took place ove three weeks and we've been in and out of the office throughout. But I looked and looked all over, retracing steps and all. I could only surmise that I'd discarded all RM700 into the bin (it was actually wayyy more but to console myself I put the loss to 700).

I just wanted to belasah myself for this act of sheer carelessness. Alligator tears were shed. I thought of ways to get some of the receipts reissued but the bulk of it seemed irrecoverable. I can only say... PADAN MUKA!!!

Hubby suggested that I talk to the Audit ppl to work out something. I pooh-poohed the idea. And continued to miserable. And decided to work put how much the actual damage was so I cld further self-bash. Thankfully, one good habit I kept a record of most expenditure. One brownie point. Minus 100 for everything else.

So, it came up to RM1,300+. That's friggin' substantial, no?

But it turned out, the man had it right all along. I finally did speak to the Audit person on charge and she reviewed my claims and declared it reasonable so asked me to submit my claims without receipts. And I did so unhesitatingly. So yay! :)

[Haven't gotten the cheque yet so not popping any champagne bottle yet.. all ready nevertheless ;)]

It's the little things.

Ought to be shot.

I'm being openly judgmental here but there is this divorce that's all abuzz online right now that everybody saw coming (probably not so soon but if you thought it was gonna last, you must be the last of the dinosaurs) that I frankly have nothing nice to say about the marriage and the breakup. I buy nothing of the sobs and geez, I'm just so so annoyed at how irreverent their view of the institution of marriage is, and I sure was thinking unholy thoughts when for some reason E! thinks that there are still milkable moments from the wedding episode and I happened to tune in when the bride uttered the til-death-do-us-part part of her vow. Obviously it meant nothing to her. That, or she's dead now. Heart broken? Boo-xxx-hoo.