somewhat sille, that's me!

i'm not a big fan of emotions

i don't like how energy sapping it gets, esp a long-drawn drama
i don't like turning into an incoherent blubber
i don't like the raging tempest within
i don't like exploding into hot rage
i don't like euphoric high only to be met by a slump
i don't like to be affected by what i read, what i hear

but much as i tell myself not to
i do.
much as i try to hold it in and just let things be
i can't.
much as i try not to be bothered
i am.

i wish i could control my emotions better.