safe and sound and secure

i just love this live version of Lee Hom's 2001 hit song 安全感 Sense of Security. the original version was rather subdue, but here, with the electric guitar and that bass... i just love it! [mm i generally like songs that sound like this] and it fanned that flame of fervent desire to see him live in concert.

speaking of the sense of security, God knows how terrified I am about that when it comes to my job. i've spoken about this many times before and like a broken record, here it is again: the period after i quit the bank in 2009 was the worst in my life, bar none. although it was only a short three months, it felt like three eternities. i remember waking up and having nowhere to go but to the next room to work on some of the part-time editing jobs i got. i still rber sitting in the dimly-lit room feeling hopeless and helpless and urgh. i don't rber going out much, because every time i drove out it would mean petrol money and i was conscious of every cent that i had (but i did go down to Spore once to leech off my sister hahaha)(and i got a lot of free meals from sympathizing souls -- thank you!). i didn't cry much about it if at all. but i was depressed.. but as i read my old blog entries from that time, i sounded way better than i rber feeling. heh.

i realised that i had attached a lot of my self-worth to having a job. i knew even then that i shouldn't but i did. and the echoes of miss nomer's esteem-busting words kept haunting me. for what it's worth, i can truly identify with people who lose their jobs, especially breadwinners.. it can be an emotionally-crippling time, no matter how supportive the people around you are.

i will always fondly remember how much i played owl city's songs back then. he was still unknown then so his music was freely available on his Facebook page. i must have heard vanilla twilight and saltwater room and dear vienna and fireflies a million times. his songs were like a buoy to my sinking spirit and drifting soul.. he's a really good boy ;)

i'm just forever and ever and ever thankful i pulled through that period. i didn't do it on my own strength because i had none.. it was the husband, the friends and family, and of course God my fortress and shield.

these are just snippets of what i remember from that time. it could have been different, for all i know.

anyways, three years down the road... job security still ranks high on my priority list. i wanna stay in this same job forever. it's comfy and it's convenient, and oh, they just gave me my parking card! but i think it's now or never. imma take a DEEEEEEP breath... and exhale... cos I'm not going to hold it while the next job takes its time to come along.

maybe i'm meant to stay, maybe i'm meant to go. i'm just happy that i'm not afraid anymore that if it happens to be the latter. :) thank you for keeping me in prayer. ;)



看着天　一边开车一边打哈欠
DJ 报时说　清晨六点　想到见你就不累
Oh 这些年　我还留着你的高跟鞋
也会嫉妒今天谁的吻　有落在你的唇边
looking at the sky, driving and yawning
the DJ says that dawn will be at six
the thought of seeing you took my fatigue away
all these years, i still kept your high-heeled shoes
and envy whoever that's planting a kiss on your lips today

Oh 亲爱的　你家的路怎会越开越远
Oh 天知道　怎么办　我们都失去了方向感
Oh 亲爱的　你是否也在等着那一天
心的距离　能缩短　找回遗失的安全感
[心的距离　能缩短　让我给你安全感]
dearest, why is the road leading back to your home getting further and further away
God knows why we have lost our sense of directions
dearest, are you also waiting for that day
for the distance between our hearts to be shortened
and for us to rediscover that lost sense of security
[allow me to give you the sense of security]

Oh 忘不了　曾经爱得那么的狂野
不管经过多少的错觉　爱情留下的余味　依然这么浓烈
亲爱的　你是否也在等着那一天
心的距离　能缩短　帮助我找回遗失的安全感
i cannot forget the passion we once shared
it doesn't matter how much mistaken feelings we have to overcome
for love leaves a strong aftertaste
dearest, are you also waiting for that day
for the distance between our hearts to be shortened
and for us to rediscover that lost sense of security


嫉妒 jídù - to be jealous / to envy / to hate
唇 chún - lip
缩短 suōduǎn - to curtail / to cut down




安全感

看着天　一边开车一边打哈欠
DJ 报时说　清晨六点　想到见你就不累
Oh 这些年　我还留着你的高跟鞋
也会嫉妒今天谁的吻　有落在你的唇边

Oh 亲爱的　你家的路怎会越开越远
Oh 天知道　怎么办　我们都失去了方向感
Oh 亲爱的　你是否也在等着那一天
心的距离　能缩短　找回遗失的安全感

Oh 忘不了　曾经爱得那么的狂野
不管经过多少的错觉　爱情留下的余味　依然这么浓烈
亲爱的　你是否也在等着那一天
心的距离　能缩短　帮助我找回遗失的安全感

Oh 亲爱的　你家的路怎会越开越远
Oh 天知道　怎么办我们都失去了方向感
Oh 亲爱的　你是否也在等着那一天
心的距离　能缩短　让我给你安全感
心的距离　能缩短　让我给你安全感