somewhat sille, that's me!

when i heard this song this morning, i thought i was thinking aloud. i wasn't, but if i did, this is what i would have said. Mmhmm.

Relient K - More Than Useless

I feel like, I would like to be somewhere else doing something that matters
And I'll admit here, while I sit here
My mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather

What's the purpose? It feels worthless
So unwanted like I've lost all my value
I can't find it, not in the least bit
and I'm just scared, so scared that I'll fail You

And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me

I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right, do something right for once

So I say if I can't do something significant
I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial, that life could give me will
Measure up to what might have replaced it

Too late look, my date book is packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And I bet, that regret will prove to get me to improve in the long run

I notice, I know this week is a symbol of how I use my time
Resent it, I spent it, convincing myself the world's doing just fine
Without me
Doing anything of any consequence
Without me
Showing any sign of ever making sense
Of my time , it's my life, and my right, to use it like I should
Like He would, for the good of everything that I would ever know