somewhat sille, that's me!

i don't usually go to bed besieged by murderous thoughts.
but i did last night.
my chest was tight, and heart was throbbing, and i was just so consumed with anger. i knew in my head that i should pray, but i could. when i managed to, i js told God that i cldn't take it. that some ppl wld just drop dead. i told him i couldn't possibly pray sincerely.

i don't usually switch on my computer asking WHAT THE HELL?!?!
but i did this morning.
a church in melawati was burned down last night, with another failed attempt on a catholic church in PJ. (i heard there might be 2 other planned attacks, but can't verify for now)

these attention whores, these bigot maggots (zul's words), what on earth are they doing?!?!?! what on earth do they feed you in your surau?? what could you possibly want out of this?!?


again, whatever lah. i need to chill.

i have heard many voices of reason. i hope these will prevail.

God, what can do we do?

i'm blogging in the midst of organising a staff birthday lunch. it's weird - the clashes of thoughts and emotions.